The army truck rumbled ferociously as it climbed the mountains surrounding Tapovan. Inside sat six soldiers dressed in uniform and one young sadhu clad in only an orange cloth. Rudraksh around his neck and down his torso. White ash -sacred vibhuti- caked on his forehead, his chest and on his arms.
Swamiji enriched the army soldiers as he went up the mountainous range, interrupted by the tires of the truck often jolting them up out of their seats. Their teeth chattered and heads jingled.
They went along like this, the soldiers protected by their helmet and uniform from any serious injury but Swamiji made vulnerable. Suddenly, the truck’s tires lifted up in the air over enormous rocks. Swamiji’s lean body was thrust a foot above the wooden seat. He plummeted down and landed stiffly. Pain shot through his spine, surging sparks of dark fire. Immediately Swamiji placed an open palm on the source of the pain on his body, the small of his back. As quickly as the pain came over him, it disappeared right then.
When they reached the military camp at the top of Tapovan, the army general insisted that they take a scan and do the proper medical procedure for Swamiji even though he was experiencing no pain. They forced him into the machine. Finally when he obliged, they were shocked to see the scars of a fracture there even though Swamiji experienced no pain at all.
This was the time that Swamiji discovered his ability to heal himself. It was after this he began to heal others the way that he did himself. His healing hands became world renowned, just second to his smile.
Finally, please understand this vignanamaya kosha miracles, bamboo is always used for vignanamaya kosha miracles. First you have to penetrate and get into a bamboo. That is why the bamboo is used lot in vedanta. See when you wanted to create the divya sharira, that disciples, first you have to work with bamboo. Bamboo is the plant which is ready for this divya sareera xperiment. That is why Shankara first experiments with bamboo, bamboo stick, danda, then he enters into Kashi Raja’s body. Please understand, from that time only giving bamboo danda, bamboo stick as a danda became a habit.
You see, first time, when he entered into Kashi Raja’s body, all the disciples were crying, “what we will do without you?” Then he enters into bamboo stick and gives one stick to all his disciples and tells them to protect this body and enters into Kashi Raja’s body and experiences the world and everything. Then he comes back. Then that after he came back also the disciples felt that the stick is a sacred and it represents master; so they started carrying. This is the way the bamboo danda being carried started in the vedantic tradition.
So always the danda given to the disciple will be height of the master because it represents master. There’s a measurement. They will take the master’s height and the master’s ajna height. The danda represents master. Bamboo is the tree you can use to create divya sareera. Actually when I first had the healing initiation, first thing I did is I came and practiced, tried it on our bamboo. Whether I am able to do that. My life energy entering into that because it was dead bamboo. The whole thing became alive. Then I know, wow now the divya sharira process is happening, the vignanamaya kosha process is happening. So the first medium of me is this bamboo grove. This bamboo grove is my first medium. And that is why from this bamboo grove we take bamboos and give for healing initiation also. So vignanamaya kosha miracles happen by the, with the bamboo. Bamboo is the plant for vignanamaya kosha miracles.
At the age of 12, I was given this enlightenment experience and the power of Kundalini by my teachers, acharyas. Even for small, small things, I will play with this power. If my classmates are fighting for a candy, I will say, ‘Don’t worry!’ and I will just materialize a candy and give them. If some of my classmates and friends come and tell me, ‘Swamiji…’ – even in those days I used to be called as “Swamiji” – ‘Swamiji, today I have not done my homework. Please save me from the Maths teacher!’, I will say, ‘Alright! He will have diarrhea! He will not come to school!’ And he will not come! He will have diarrhea!
Of course, later on, a great siddha purusha, incarnation, he made me realize that you should not be using the Kundalini Shakthi, ashta maha siddhis so casually even for small, small things. Then, from 17, I stopped using, used only very rarely, only when really it is required. From 22, I surrendered everything completely to the Cosmos, and whatever the Divine wants, that plays, that uses, that expresses! Now if the Divine wants, it expresses and shows even Vishwaroopa, or it just lives ordinary inside the boundaries of simple rules and regulations; as per the Divine wish and will it is happening. By 22, the withering away of the will has happened. So after that, no decision is mine.
Only thing human-beings need to learn in their life to achieve anything they want, whether they want to become President of the United States or anything they want to achieve -Bill Gates or Buddha- whatever they want in their life, only thing human-beings need to learn is learning to awaken their kundalini.
Sannyas is the only way to true freedom! Please understand, I am not saying one way to true freedom. Even when it comes to Hinduism, I am not a fanatic. But when it comes to sannyas, I think I am a fanatic! But one nice thing, my fanaticism is established on sound knowledge and perfect experience. Sound knowledge and complete experience!
In my life, I have even doubted at least once the masters whom I believed – Ramakrishna and Ramana Maharshi. These two were the masters whom I believed while I was doing my practices. They both are my scale to measure anything. What is vairagya? I will refer only to them. What is enlightenment? I will refer only to them. What is tapas? I will refer to them. What is spiritual practice? I will refer to them. They were the scale for me to refer anything. Their words are the ultimate for me. They both are the Supreme Court for me. Even I doubted both of them, but I never doubted sannyas in my life.
There was a time when I decided I will live without both of them in my life, before my realization of my mission. Maybe, I can say, some ten hours I was in that space. Once I even thought of disowning Hinduism! In that space I was there for three or four hours. I felt the whole Hinduism is fake! All masters are fake! I was in such deep depression. The last, just before enlightenment, means flowering, the last phase I have to walk alone. So, that loneliness, I felt all masters are fake! Hinduism is fake! At that time, I wanted to take revenge. I threw the Ramakrishna photo which I was worshipping as my very being for years! And I decided just to take revenge I will convert from Hinduism! I doubted my masters and Hinduism, but even at that time I never thought I will leave sannyas! Of course, when I realized the ultimate, I understood everyone has to pass through that phase. So, my connection with sannyas is more than my connection with Vedic tradition. See, I was planning to get converted to Buddhism. That is the closest I can find to Hinduism. Even then I was only planning to be a Buddhist Lama, not married, Buddhist sannyasi.
I tell you, even a failed sannyasi is thousand times progressed than a successful householder, because in the householder, the responsibility you take is a totally different direction. It is about enriching one family. The very scale you set for yourself is so low. It is like a mom-shop pop-shop guy. His whole goal is only yearly turnover of ten-thousand-five-hundred-and-fifty rupees. A sannyasi, every day his turnover is two- and-a-half crores. So, even if he fails, he will be at least two crores! Even if the mom-shop pop-shop guy is successful, he may be twelve-thousand rupees. Understand, the very level in which you put your scale itself is different in sannyas. But only thing, you have to be a responsible sannyasi. Of course, only with responsibility sannyas comes. Sannyasi is not an outfit, he is an overfit. If mainstream Hindus take up sannyas again as a lifestyle, at least after sixty-five, after sixty, at least after retirement – of course if you ask me, I will say you should start sannyas life at the age of six, or if not, little early – but at least after retirement, after sixty, become sannyasi. I tell you, so much can be done to you and to the world!
I commit, I will make mainstream Hindus accept sannyas as a lifestyle by making some of the top celebrities in India in the political, cine field, social field, making them take sannyas when they retire from life. Some of the top celebrities in India, I will see to it they take sannyas when they turn fifty-eight, and they set a trend! Any model citizen, the mainstream Hindu should take sannyas by the time you retire. I will make this as a lifestyle and I wanted it to be a lifestyle.
Swamiji wields a power beyond what a normal orator can do. Orators can play with words, but Swamiji can simply transmit the image that he seeing to our minds. As if a network of metaphysical fibers is stretching out from us to him and wrapping around each other, going from two different entities to one inseparable unit. In the aftermath of this union, every time we remember him, that intimate place where our stuff intertwines reverberates within us, sometimes so much that it expresses as a power. Any kind of power- from a small smile out of nowhere or an actual diamond out of nowhere.
When the great truths of our ancestors were experienced by from master to disciple, this ensured the continuation of the Upanishads for generations~ right until they were delivered from our own guru, Paramahamsa Nithyananda.
Keno Upanishad Verse 4
na tatra cakṣurgacchati na vāg gacchati no manaḥ na vidmo na vijānīmo yathaitadanuśiṣyāt || 3|| anyadeva tadviditādatho aviditādadhi iti śuśruma pūrveṣāṁ ye nastad vyācacakṣire || 4 ||
Listen. The moment I read this verse, I had one experience flashing in me, which happened in my life in 1995. I will narrate the whole thing, listen carefully.
After I had the darshan of Shankara Baba in Haridwar who came and gave me food and medicine and cured me, I was completely hail and healthy, blissful, running, enjoying. Suddenly one day, evening I heard the news, Swami Vairagyananda, Sarada Devi’s disciple, Swami Vairagyananda, I have heard about him. I have even had his darshan earlier. I heard he was in hospital really ill and need to be attended. There a hospital in Kankhal, land was given by Maha Nirvani Akhada to Ramakrishna Mission, built the hospital and maintaining it. In 17 places Maha Nirvani Akdhada has given land to Ramakrishna mission – major places in India
So I ran to the hospital. I had the opportunity of serving him. The best punya this body has ever earned is serving the elder Sadhus, especially when they are sick. Cleaning their 1 and 2 without feeling the hesitation, treating them properly. He was not able to go in the restroom and I used to clean and take care. He has developed little bed sores and I used to attend to that. That is my passion. The best thing I will enjoy is taking care of elderly sadhus, who are not well, who need to be attended.
My Guru; when she gave the Danda for parivrajaka, she told me “You will never be in want of anything you need for survival. Your life will never be under threat. You will be protected”
She said, “Always serve elderly sadhus, tht will be e great punya”
Of course, I did not leave immediately. After she left the body only, I left Tiruvannamalai. I always kept the word of serving the elderly Sadhus.
He was so happy the way. I took care of him. He is a Mahatma. I can see clearly the internal organs are failing the beaming joy in the face. Only Bhogis lie down flat, never Yogis. His internal organs are failing, he may be alive maximum next 28-48 hours.
He voice, “Aye, kokā”
Bengali word to ad
dress a kid is Koka Maharaj. “Koka Maharaj make me sit.” I have to drag him little up, so that he in at least in the slanting position.
“Why do you want to sit, just lie.”
“Nahi, only Bhogis lie down. Yogi can never lie down.”
He used to tell the royal brand horses can never sit or lie down and sit. King has the habit: of a royal horses. Middle class sits or lies down throughout their life. I was shocked. I don’t know how much to believe. Till the end, the flat lying down was never his lifestyle and he will sit and stretch the leg.
I can touch and feel God in the air he is breathing, in the space he is radiating. So I was serving him, taking care of him. Bed sores in the back and butt, I cleaned up all that.
I just had only this one flash, what I can learn from him at this situation. The person of this caliber, tapasvi. The only property he left is – brass or copper glass, it is still with me. That is the only property he has left, not even a plate. Traditon in North, who attend to him when he is old, he is automatic legitimate successor. He has one small ishta devata, the feet dust of Sarada Devi, he gave that to me when he was about to leave the body.
Swamiji told us, “For me, this is him. It’s a worship object for me.”
Vairagyananda Swami had thousands of devotees come to him for darshan- even VIPs. While he was alive, this tumblr was witness to his bio-memory and muscle-memory. Now, it carries that from his life to Swamiji’s.
What I can learn? The moment I had this flow, current. He just opened his eyes. “Koka, listen, if you enjoyed 5 senses related pleasures, when that 5 senses cannot function anymore you will fall into depression. Because life will feel empty. If you enjoyed only kind of a thinking, the intellectual pleasures, like scientists, mathematicians, logicians, when that logic is failing, the powerful logic will give way, you will fall into depression.”
“Even if you have developed only the power of repeating the name of God, logic slowly fails, you will fall into depression. Throughout my life I developed to rest in that pure unclutching space and my integrity to my Guru, so even though one by one my senses have failed, intellect is failing; visualization, emotions are failing; my integrity to the Guru which is holding me. This is what you can learn from my life as a lesson”
When he was describing , I could see. Most powerful old age insurance. Even if you just practice just repetition of name. Your ability to connect and remember will fail. Pleasure of remembering God even that circuit will fail that in you. Visualize my own form and meditate, there will one moment where the visualization ability will collapse in you
Only one thing can hold you – your integrity to your Guru. The joy beaming in his face. Only with Arunagiri Yogeshwara, I had tears of gratitude in my eyes. The nest person I have tears of gratitue in my eyes for is Vairagyananda. The power of his integrity I got entangled with that experience. I was literally vibrating with that space he was residing. That entanglement was the initiation. Whatever he wants to give me, a blessing, fulfillment.
Years before, Vairagyananda Swami was witness to a Jagaddhatri Puja. Traditionally, pujaris make Devi out of the clay and water from Ganga. But on this occasion, heavy rains made it impossible for the clay deity to stay in tact. Spontaneously, Sarada Devi herself sat. They conducted the puja to her. At last, Vairagyananda Swami bowed down to touch her feet. As he lifted his head to see his beloved guru again, he saw Jagadhatri herself from foot to head. At the last minute, he collected the kum kum offered at her feet for puja.
In 1995, Vairagyananda Swami gave Swamiji the paadadhuli of Sarada Devi.
With the first gold he ever received during his public life, Swamiji retrieved the paadadhuli he kept with him for all these years and made this ring.
He said beautifully,”See, in your brain if the salt level in your blood goes down, or keratin level goes up, your brain will lose its ability to remember and connect. So even if you develop the habit of japa, at one time, you can fall into depression. When your brain collapses, loses its ability to connect and remember”
The best thing you should develop in your system, your ability to be in the space of unclutching, space of Sadashivoham, perpetual completion, which is technically called by Sadashiva as Sajuya Samadhi. You should develop that space.
I tell you, the fruit of your life is the way you leave your body, nothing else. Not what you left but the way you left.