The Leela of Disciplehood
Sri Ramakrishna Paramahaṃsa (1836 – 1886)
For ten years, I read ‘The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna’ every night! I never felt bored with his spiritual truths. It is not that always when I read Ramakrishna’s Gospel, I was feeling pleasant and happy to read further. Many times I felt I was not executing these words, I have to execute these words. There were millions of struggles. Sometimes, I wouldn’t even feel like reading the next page. I would feel, ‘Let Me complete this one truth, let Me master this one truth, then I will go to the next.’ All kinds of mood swings, all kinds of thinking, all kinds of discontentment, all kinds of dissatisfaction, all kinds of guilt. I was seeing everything, of course, in a different scale. The scale in which you see is very different; the scale in which I see is different.